i woke up early, ran 3.5 miles into town, got my haircut, then ran 3.5 back. what have you done today?
I’m having the worst time with my weight. With work, and funeral detail, duty next week, the stress is killing me, I barely have time to go to the chow hall and eat the bullshit food they have there so then I end up spending money on fucking McDonalds just cause it’s convenient. Cause on a Marine Corps base I can’t even have the comfort of going to the store in fucking shorts, they have to have more than 2 pockets. Like ya lemme fucking find a pair of fucking cargo shorts from when i was 12 real quick. Since mcd’s is the only drive the place on base I end up spending shit ton of money on either that or fucking domino’s now I’m struggling with fitting into clothes, not that they don’t exactly fit I’m just not comfortable in my own skin anymore, also i should probably stop drinking for a while. Shit is not easy when you live in a room with 2 other people, no fucking kitchen, you have to basically dress like you’re going to church to go to the store on base, and everything on this island is so damn expensive. So work leads to stress, stress leads to eating, lack of convenience/time leads to unhealthy eating, which leads to money problems, which leads to stress, which leads to eating…do you see where I’m fucking going with this. I’m poor, and unhealthy, and stressed, and sexually frustrated. Whole different story. Which leads to my next point. The lack of females on this island is mind boggling. Like ya whatever if you want a quick lay then be my guest. but I feel like i need to prove to people that i’m different than who i used to be, and not even for them, for myself. And it’s not even that really, that’s that the only people that I would even remotely consider having sex with are A) back home B) not interested or C) completely off limits. With all of this being said; no one is going to read this, cause either it’s too long or you don’t give a fuck what I have to say (which i’m not really concerned with that). Have a good night tumblr.